I am a mature woman not a childish Girl !

You lost everything

you had no ears to listen 

to my silent talks 

you had no eyes to read 

what my eyes used to say

No heart to feel 

I was transparent 

In front of your noisy world

U know ..... 

I had my own world too !!! 

I was near but far

you were acting 

Like a fighter in a war!

I was not that harmful woman

I knew that you are hurt , and you have a scar

I am strong but oversensitive

I am kind but defensive

I am brave but uncourageous

I am horribly unique!

you should have used the key

that i have told you about me

I needed your hug 

not because i am needy 

I just wanted you to SEE me ! 

To see me for who am I

not for whom you wanted me to be 

I am not a paste that just fits a mold

I am a brand new story which is never told 

I am so deep and soft

But you Only see yourself 

I am emotional 

I am unpredictable 

I am vulnerable

I am a woman

Who opened up to you

If you could have seen the core of me

There would have been no pretending

You were so deaf to hear

i was so close and near

Closer than what you think

You were about to win my heart

I opened up to you

And sophisticatedly  I used to act

I gave up on your childish thoughts

And your dignity that you enlarge!

you think I am shallow

or jealous of other girls 

I am the deepest woman ever

you can meet here on planet earth 

I wanted you to read me 

Or put yourself in my place

I always used to give you excuses

And give you time and space

I saw you someone wonderful

I welcomed you in my life

you were unaware of what i do 

your tongue was like a knife

I wanted our worlds to mix

you wanted me alone

you think i am cruel and my heart is like a stone!

My will and desire were ignored

you were inconsiderate to me 

My talents are belittled

you hated seeing me free!

I needed your support

not your blaming and revenge

I stood with my heart on my hands

you should have just took me

Just the way i am 

I needed your hands 

I needed to feel safe in your world 

please treat me like a queen 

I am a mature woman 

Not a childish girl 

You didn't get my logic 

But i forgave you anyway !

Nardine 

11 March 2015